What would you do if you were me?
Days of Innocence: Watching the Cubs:
Richard M. Nixon was in office, young American men were fighting in Vietnam and the Beatles had just broken up. What did I know? I was a pre-pubescent baseball nut, counting the hours between Cubs games. Growing up in upstate New York, the only time I could watch the Cubs was when they were on Saturday's NBC Game of the Week or if they were playing the Mets. Sometimes, if the nights were clear, I could pick up Cubs games when they were playing the Pirates in Pittsburgh, listening to Bob Prince's voice weave in and out of static.
The highlight of my summer was our annual two-week August vacation to visit my grandparents, uncles, aunts and cousins in Wheaton, Ill., a half-hour drive from Wrigley Field. My uncle would be sure to get us tickets for one Cubs game, and we'd pile into the car and find street parking, usually a few blocks from the shrine on the corner of Clark and Addison. I'll always remember walking through the concourse and seeing the field for the first time -- the outfield grass dazzling green while my idols played soft-toss and sprinted casually across the field.
Wrigley was the first ballpark I ever visited, and the Cubs were my first love. I remember that lineup in the early '70s: Ron Santo, Don Kessinger, Glenn Beckert, Joe Pepitone, Billy Williams, Bill North, Johnny Callahan and Randy Hundley. Fergie Jenkins was the ace, and he seemed to win 20 games every season.
Problem was, the Cubs always finished second, sometimes third, sometimes worse. In '69, they blew a huge lead to the Miracle Mets. My mother was 15 the last time the Cubs won a pennant, in 1945 against the Tigers. They haven't won a World Series since 1908, but every year Cubs fans are optimistic that they'll put together a team that is good enough to win it all. It never happens.
Days of Adulthood: Watching the Red Sox:
In '84, I moved to Boston. My undergraduate work behind me, I needed to pursue a real job. My first October in Boston, the Cubs won the NL East and faced off against the Padres for the National League pennant. In what would be the last year of the five-game league playoffs, the Cubs won the first two and lost three straight to Steve Garvey and the Padres. Stars Lee Smith and Leon (Bull) Durham played poorly in the playoffs and the Cubs were sent home once again.
But something was happening to me. I was living just blocks from Fenway Park, and going to Red Sox games was part of my new culture. My friends and I would just hop on the Green Line, buy a bleacher seat for $4 and watch some pretty good baseball. It wasn't the Cubs, but I also didn't have to wait all year to see a baseball game. I didn't have to go with my parents, I could drink beer and I could come back the next night, providing I wasn't working.
I have to admit, I got pretty caught up with the Red Sox. The '84 club had bashers like Jim Rice, Dwight Evans and Tony Armas. This new guy, Wade Boggs, was once of the purest hitters I'd ever seen. When Roger Clemens struck out 20 Mariners on a cool April evening in '86, I was hooked. The Red Sox made it all the way to the World Series in '86, something I'd never seen the Cubs do. When the Mets came from behind to win both Game 6 and Game 7, I was disappointed, but not crushed. Being a Cubs fan, ultimate failure was expected in baseball.
I became a sports reporter during the '86 season, and had the opportunity to cover several of the Red Sox games. I tried to be professional but my insides were jumping, as I was fulfilling a dream I had since second grade. I interviewed Boggs, Rice, Evans and Clemens, among many others, and saw a side of athletes I had never seen. They can be ornery and full of themselves. This gave me a new perspective on baseball, and professional sports in general. These guys are not idols; they are not icons. They are definitely not role models.
In '95, I moved out of the sports writing business and into the online publishing world. I still followed the Cubs and Red Sox, watching another Cubs playoff collapse in '89, and Red Sox playoff shortcomings in '90, '95 and '99.
Nine years removed from sports writing makes it easier to become a fan again. This is my 20th September in Boston, and I have followed this team as close as those early '70s Cubs teams. The Red Sox offense is like none I've ever seen before, all the way through the lineup. There's Manny, Nomar and Tek. Mueller and Millar. Damon, Walker, Ortiz and Nixon. Pedro and D-Lo. I had the pleasure of seeing the thriller against the Orioles last week, when Walker tied the game (Bernie Carbo style) with a three-run shot with two outs in the ninth and Ortiz won it (Fisk style) with a solo shot in the 10th. It's a hell of a ballclub.
So, what do I do if the Cubs, winners of the NL Central, meet the Red Sox in the World Series? Red Sox fans cry 1918, but it's been 1908 for the Cubs. And who did the Sox beat to win their last World Series title? The Cubs, of course.
Do I honor my childhood team and pull for the Cubs, or do I root for the home team, my home team, these never-say-die Red Sox that have provided thrills and spills in my back yard for the last 20 years?
It's a nice problem to have, should it happen, but I have no idea how to solve it.